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The Sun

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 11:09:00 -0500

Does anyone
remember
the sun?
It was warm
when not much
could thaw
through that shell
we called home
filled with birds
and bugs
and snow
that filled
and whitened
everything.

The way it
shone
on your face
like some
golden
idol sprite
made me
feel
that nothing
could
go wrong.

Does anyone
remember
the sun?
Its warmth
we couldn’t
get enough
laying out
with nothing on
while the boys
all looked
and laughed.

What the world is for

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:46:25 -0500

Of all the things that you put me through
the worst of them was loving you.
But oh- girl! I’ve found someone else
to rescue me from your perpetual hell

My heart was brokedown, my life was poor,
I had no one walking through that door.
But oh- girl! she set me free
She showed me what I needed to see.

After you left my heart was closed,
she came along and held me close.
And oh- girl! the way she makes me feel!
It’s something that you could never steal

Of all the things that I went though
the worst was pretending I loved you.
Oh yes girl! I’ve found someone else.
to rescue me from your perpetual hell

It’s been so long since I’ve seen a face,
that could take me back to that eternal place,
but now I know more and more
Her face is what the world is for.

Turning In and Out

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 00:10:11 -0500

We’re turning in and out
Can’t tell up from down
We’re burning up in smoke
and there’s nothing that can be done.

Can you take that tremendous feat?
Will it make them stop and stare?
We’re going to have to find
some way to survive.

The world is spinning on and on
Jump and it will turn beneath you.
Taste that bitter sweetness
rushing through your veins.

If you feel too weak
it’s probably because you are.
The world is bathed in daylight
and it’s blinding us all.

We’re fading in and out now
our humanity is gone.
Nothing is feeling right,
something must be wrong.

State of the Blog-Union Address

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 09:49:59 -0500

State of the Blog-Union Address

I guess

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:52:48 -0500

So it turns out, that I cannot do all the things I imagined doing when I was young
But I guess, things would be right if I hadn’t left you behind.
Walking on pavement, just doesn’t feel quite the same
But I know, that I have all day to make it feel like it did

So it turns out that I cannot talk, to anyone but you
But I guess, that’s just the way things have to be sometimes.
I don’t even want to know, what my life would have been like If I was with you
But I guess I could just look at the mirror and see your face staring right back at me

So it turns out that the joke is maybe on me
But I guess, that it’s funny either way,
and we were laughing all along
And I digress, this is just talk

So it’s not like it was, with names on slips of paper behind locks
But I guess, those papers would have just faded anyway.
I’m not even sure where I put that key
But I guess, that’s for the better.

Spinning Wheel

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 09:12:17 -0500

You were the flame swallower
and I was the spinning wheel
Oh! to the carnival we’d go
trying to pretend that our
lives were less real

Oh! to the carnival we’d go
working ourselves until we
could hardly feel

You were the bearded lady
and I was the spinning wheel
Oh! and to the carnival we’d go
making the children believe
that there was something more real

Oh! and to the carnival we’d go
trying to pretend that our
wounds would heal

You were the lion tamer
and I was the spinning wheel
Oh! and to the carnival we’d go
turning secret love letters
into something real

Oh! and to the carnival we’d go
spending our paychecks to buy
our next meal

You were the lizard man
and I was the spinning wheel
busy living a life that
was more real

Glacier

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:29:06 -0500

You were standing there
out in the cold
I couldn’t help
the wind was blowing
down the mystic mountain side

I couldn’t see
you tried to run
I couldn’t grasp
your finger tips
all you wanted
was to hold on

The wind was strong
the ice it blew
all around
there was nothing
I could do
I lost you there
on that mountainside

I turned to leave
I had to go
I slipped and fell
The ice was flowing
down the mountainside

The thought of you
was the last thought
on my mind
as I sunk down
that frozen sea
and we became as one

(This is only part of the poem, the rest will be published tomorrow to 7 days 7 authors)

This is version 2.0 of my book, which can be bought now on Lulu,...

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 18:17:00 -0500

This is version 2.0 of my book, which can be bought now on Lulu, just click the picture and it’ll take you there.

Here are some facts about the book:

It is 66% larger than version 1.0
The cover has changed, and it is blank on the back cover
You can no longer purchase version 1.0
But that’s OK because this version has all the same stuff that was in 1.0 and (you guessed it) 66% more.
The book is $12.00 even
As always everything that is in this book can be found either here on this blog or in my various others.
The pages seem whiter in this version than the last, I guess that’s a good thing
It smells stronger (of what i’m assuming is book glue)
This version contains a Preface
It tops out at 85 pages
This book is not perfect, but is a heck of a lot better than version 1.0, this just means that version 3.0 is going to be even better.
This version contains every poem found on this blog up to The Spit Euphoric
The cover is really glossy and gets fingerprinty
I named this book after you

Some background info on the book:

This book contains everything (good, but that’s up for debate) that I’ve ever written in my life. However I only started writing in 2005. The way that this book works is, every year or so I’m going to put out another edition, under the same title, with all the previous works and all the new pieces I’ve written up to the publication date. As I find things that I dont like, and as my tastes change the versions will be tweaked in style and formatting; covers will change, content will shift, etc. . As each new version comes out, the older version will be discontinued, making them collectable (i wish), for example, less than 30 copies of version 1.0 were even printed.

Thank you, and see y’all in a year or so,

Jacob

Do not lose yourself.

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:21:00 -0500

You have no name
because you have not time for one
you are the young wanderer,
and on your journey you are gone.

Do not lose yourself
Young Wanderer,
though the way be long and dark,
and your eyes so small.
Do not lose yourself,
The world has just begun.

Do not lose yourself
Young Wanderer,
though the way be long and the twists many
and your legs so small.
Do not lose yourself,
The world has just begun.

Do not lose youself
Young Wanderer,
always hear our calls of love, and know
though your ears so small,
that we are here.
Do not lose yourself,
The world has just begun,
and this is the world that you live in,
for now, and forever more.

The Spit Euphoric

Thu, 22 May 2008 00:00:00 -0500

The spit euphoric
He can’t swallow
The spit euphoric
like acid burning
He thought he could taste
The spit euphoric dripping
The spit euphoric dripping
Between her legs

Someone

Wed, 07 May 2008 00:00:00 -0500

Someone walked into my home last night
Someone who wasn’t supposed to be there
His shadow flickered in the candle light

He brought with him tools needed to fight
I wanted to move but I couldn’t dare
Someone walked into my home last night

The door I had forgotten to lock tight
leaving my home defenseless and bare
His shadow flickered in the candle light

He thought he was alone and out of sight
as I was whispering my last prayer
Someone walked into my home last night

My saviour angel, dressed all in white
He wiped my tears away and stroked my hair
His shadow flickered in the candle light

“Everything is going to be alright,
I’m here now, you have nothing more to bear.”
Someone walked into my home last night
His shadow flickered in the candle light

The Barn

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:00:00 -0500

I once found a girl in the back of a barn
Where the wood and the hay and the horses lay
And Oh- it did hurt when she went away

I was closer to the moon than she could be
Though It didn’t seem to bother her much
It wasn’t a place she wanted to see

We walked along the moor where Danny once stood
And there I promised my love to her
I had never been as close to anyone as we, then, were

And probably never will be again.
The glance she gave me as she went
had destroyed the hearts of lesser men

But I did not cripple, I did not die
I just stood there, for standing was all I could do
I thought I might stand there ‘til my final breath drew

I once lost a girl in the back of a barn.

Golden Birds

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 00:00:00 -0600

(a throwback to Golden)

I like little birds,
the way they twitter around
they weigh less than they look
anyhow.

I like Golden skies
the kind they fly on,
but will the sun still shine
when you’re not around?

And next time we walk, we’ll feed little birds
The kind only found in the parks when the sun is out

When we come down
When we come down
When we come down

Pressure

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 00:00:00 -0600

When you looked at me and asked,
Who has blood on their hands now?
I almost didn’t know.
I weighed everything you’d done
And clicked into place the final blow.

As I was leaving the church for the last time
The rushing cold wind nipped and cut at my cheeks.
I almost lost it there and then
But I kept pushing through
And all I had was a quarter in my hand.

Just enough to make a call
But there was no response from you.
Could I have been too late?
I kicked down the door like heroes do,
And found you lying in that chair.

The Boy Hundred

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 00:00:00 -0600

There once was a boy
Who took all my joy
And left me here sittin’
with nuthin’
He pillaged and stole
And he took all the Gold
And now my hearts sunken
And rotten
When I looked in his eyes
I could see his surprise
At all the things I’d forgotten
Still, He wore all his pride
On the outside
And the name it said on him
was HUNDRED

Cold

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 00:00:00 -0600

One time in the winter
We were walking out too far
We didn’t know the way back home
I was getting angry but you,
You fell on the ground and got
Snow in your nose.

I’m not much
but I am what I am
Kiss me once
and I’ll do what I can
With your lips so cold

The Old Language

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 00:00:00 -0600

It’s the old language that gets them
Their whimpering sighs and
batted eyelashes.
It’s the manners that sets them off
The things that no one cares about anymore
That which we haven’t time to do.

April Bloom

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 00:00:00 -0600

I’m watching April Bloom
I’m thinking about me and you
I’m thinking I shouldn’t have said all
those things, that I said when we didn’t know
what we were doing.

I’m licking postage stamps
and sticking them on postcards
to send to you
I’m wondering if they’ll all get through,
The mail is so slow

I’m feeling things that I used
to feel, used to feel, when I
was with you, I’ve almost forgotten
what it was like to have all day

To sit and stare at each other
and no one could come and take
that away.

I Still Remember

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 00:00:00 -0600

I still remember the first time you kissed me
It felt like a thousand stings from a bee
I wasn’t quite sure what to say.

I still remember when your dad found us out
It wouldn’t have happened if you didn’t shout
I wonder what he thinks about that now.

I still remember when we found that little stone
It was sitting on the bank all alone
We drew a face and made him happy.

I still remember when we first met
I thought you were cute and my palms began to sweat
I still think you’re cute but my palms don’t sweat anymore

..^..

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 00:00:00 -0500

Tape recorders and my fist meeting
In rooms we’ve never seen
That cat you stole we named him harry
And then we let him go

It almost feels like that time
we stayed for weeks in that hotel
but only paid for two days of rest

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